Adore too much:
This is a hard one for me. Trying not to gloat about how cute Ethan is. I know most parents know their baby is cute but Ethan! He is what perfection looks like in a baby. His morning smiles, his little baby coos and laughs. Ethan is the most happiest baby I’ve ever seen. He melts my heart every day with how far he has come in life and how eager he is to learn. Which makes it that much harder for me on the days when he cries. But this isn’t too horrible of a confession.
Staying committed to a feeding and pumping journal (pumping in general) to me is like dragging a screaming baby through the grocery store. OK, well not the dramatic but it still sucks to do. By the end of the day, I’ve missed like 3 entries and for the life of me I can’t remember the exact time Ethan last eat or how long I pumped for/how much I pumped. I may be 7 months into this parenting thing but I’m still learning.
Who else puts the baby book and/or calendar on the shelf and leaves it there for 6 months without opening it and updating all the little baby information? I can’t be alone on this, right? The Christmas I was pregnant with Ethan we received a calendar of baby’s firsts. It’s supposed to be an easy way to just jot down what your baby did for the very first time on a certain day. Well just looking at my calendar, I’m about a month and a half behind. Don’t even get me started on Ethan’s baby book. I can’t even remember the last time I open it.
For our family this is kind of an important one. Since Ethan was born 3 months early, we have quite the following of family and friends who like to know how Ethan is doing. I was great at it when he was in the hospital and the few months following. But now I can’t remember the last time I updated anybody with one of Ethan’s doctor’s appointments. For those of you wondering, Ethan’s last doctor’s appointment was an eye exam and there’s a potential for him having farsightedness. Also, he is now just over 13 lbs. and 23 inches long.
Oh the hardest one of them all, taking time for myself health and emotionally wise after having a baby. I must admit that I haven’t taken the proper time to eat healthy or get my body back into shape. I’m definitely a work in progress. As for the whole body bouncing back after pregnancy, it’s a load of crap. I’m always told, “Once you start breastfeeding, you’ll loss all your baby weight.” The first week after having Ethan, I lost 14 lbs. of water weight. Now, 7 months later, I’ve gained a few pounds of that back. With the long days and nights of a needy baby, who has the extra time to put aside for a work out? In regards to the mental health…well lets just say I’ve come along way since the NICU days but it’s still a mess in my brain.